Well here I am.  I'm currently writing this by hand, from the top of Myer's Hill in Alice Springs. I'm in the fucking outback!  I've dreamt of being here my entire life, and this is just a little taste of what I'll be seeing the next few days.

At the moment, sitting here, all of Alice Springs beneath me and the West MacDonnell mountains in the distance, I am actually feeling peaceful.  Surprising because, I can quite honestly say without a doubt, that the last 24 hours have been the most terrible of my life.  I have been trying very hard to remain positive, but for every positive minute I manage, I have about three minutes where I'm choking back tears. On top of everything that's already happened, today my netbook stopped working.  Which means my main source of communication has been severed.  Although, sitting up here right now, I'm thinking maybe that's okay.  The next few days, in the Outback will be so incredible, who needs internet.  I'll let my brain take a technology break.

Right now, sitting up here, I never want to go back.  When Sarah, Robin and I climbed to the top of El Castillo at Xunantunich, and I stood there and looked at the world around me, I realized there was so much to see in this world and I needed to see more.  Thats what I came here for.  And right now, thats what I have.  No matter what way I turn, all around me there are more mountains.  I wish I could climb each and every one of them.  I want to see everything.

The person who vandalized and robbed my bedroom is full of poison and hate.  I haven't been very public with what the graffiti said, but it waspretty much the most cruel thing someone could say to me.  And it's not going to stop hurting for a long time.  But right now, I'm sitting on the top of a hill, on a bright red rock, in the middle of the outback.  So you know what?

Life is good.